The scribbler. Gregarious, bubbly, snappy at times.
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Monday, October 03, 2005
What do you do, when ........
you want to concentrate, but your attention span is as long a blink of an eye
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you look high and low for motivation but it just doesn't come
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you want to put things behind yet all it does return at the darkest moments to haunt you
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your desire to do something is fading..
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the fire within is dying..
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To those who were there for me during hard times..
and my dearest popo who left almost 3 years ago..
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
Posted at 01:40 pm by jean`
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Friday, September 30, 2005
!#%#@$%^%#@$@#!#@$@!#@!#!@
I just realised this morning on my way to Junny's place that I had a piece of paper stuck to my wipers. Not sure why I didn't see it yesterday while I was driving back from the station area.. so I stopped my car and peered at it.
MORELAND CITY COUNCIL
was all I could make out.. and I was like "wtf.....its a bloody fine! I know its a bloody fine!"
And sure enough when I got out of the car to retrieve it, it was a friggin' fine!
PARKING FINE! gaaaaaaaah..! Will post a copy of it later tonight.
Offence = parking within 10 metres after a bus stop.. <- like what the?!?! ..... THE LINE FOR PARKING IS UNTIL THERE AND THEY WANT TO PENALISE ME FOR THAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!
Great. On top of everything else, the joy and happiness is short lived. Not to mention that its going to burn a big hole in my wallet!
What a perfect way to start my day.
Dinner at Junny's tonight. Oh, manage to borrow a pair of shoes for the interview from her as well.
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Happy Birthday dearest Ai Ling!! Will see what I can do about the cheap sale for you ;D
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Xiaxue's entry on her make-up secrets is almost if not entirely identical to the one that minishorts blogged for the blogathon on Bloggers are Morons !!
She has her thoughts on how she looks, and I have mine on her make up. Make up is suppose to enhance your looks not make it look like you are hiding your face behind a layer of stuff. Overdosage of mascara makes your lashes look fake and hence not nice at all. At least that applies to how she looks on those pics anyway. I've seen many aussies who apply waaaaay too much mascara and some don't even realise its looking terrible. I feel for them.
Though there are those amazing people who apply make up on the train in the morning. Mascara, blusher, lipstick, gloss, eye shadow.. the entire works. Amazing feat! hahaha..
Posted at 09:46 am by jean`
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Thursday, September 29, 2005
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
omg this is the first time I shopped for a fair bit of stuff on my own, as in without friends or anyone! and they are dirt cheap! very very satisfied ;D got something for my mom too..
I hope I get the job.. wish me luck!
did I mention I am very very broke at the moment?
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Posted at 06:47 pm by jean`
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Monday, September 26, 2005
Hello, the lazy blogger is back.
Pek Mei bunked over on Friday night after her Ballet show and the both of us met up with Jacin, Prita (I think), and Ben Han @ the Royal Melbourne Show. Was great fun, except for the fact that my gums around the lower right wisdom tooth were KILLING me!
I can't believe I left my camera on the bedside table.. pfft! But Ben came to the rescue! Right. Because he was too lazy to snap pics anyway, I took charge of his camera and started snapping away ;D Too bad didn't get to take those pics of the creative cakes =\
We spent the whole day running around the grounds, but the sad part was that I still didn't really get to see all the prized dogs.. only some of them =( because they were closing up already around 5pm.. saw a she-goat giving birth.. or at the beginning of it anyway, water haven't burst.. and omg saw huge-ass literally cattles.. with fur coat mmkays! Jacin was saying that they look real fake, the fur I mean.. coz the are so perfectly striped across the torso of the cattle.. but the calves were adorable! A week old calf is bloody huge =.="
Then amongst the pavillions, there was one by Safeway.. and guess what we found? A Chilli stall! From NSW.. their chilli sauces range from 2/10 - 10++/10 .. 2 being the mildest, you get the gist ;) Pek Mei and I were having a good time trying all of the sauces alright and boy were they hot!! They gave more of an after-taste hot kinda thing.. like your first bite is fine, but after that you'll be searching for water! LOTS of it! Anyways, Mei and I end up buying 4 bottles, Mei bought 3 bottles of the hottest one, and I bought a slightly milder one.. 7/10, hot enuff lah.. sumore my gums like that.. I realised yesterday that when I ate the chilli dip, my gums hurt! =\ Have to stay off it for a while.. Walking around the pavillion, we tried lots and lots of food.. I wanted to buy some other food stuff, but they didn't have the offer for the one I wanted, so tak beli.. but bought apricot chutney, twin berry jam, and tomato relish from one of the stalls, all for $10 =) All were nyums!
Ben, Jacin and Prita and Mei and I kept separating as the trio had a treasures to hunt down, while Mei and I were taking a Saturday stroll..
Anyways, because of the lousy gum/toothache I couldn't eat much, didn't have the appetite either.. and while Mei and I both exhausted! waited for the trio to go on their rides, I ate 2 slices of the white bread that they collected from their treasure hunt.. and even that I had difficulty chewing it.. that day was really bad.. talking left my gums aching, so I was pretty sullen for the later part of the day.
Pictures will have to wait until Ben and Jacin send the files over to me..
Was planning to have a dinner at my place, to meet up with the rest, and also coz its cheaper with us sharing the bill than if we ate outside.. but since Rcjy and hsemates have yet to reply, may have to postpone because haven't bought the stuff for steamboat..if not keen then cancel it and have the one with CY and frens for pisang gorenggg!! ;D
*swears at wisdom tooth for making me hurt so much..!* The pain and swelling is almost gone when I woke up this morning, and then for no reason, it started again.. gaaaaah!
Posted at 08:13 am by jean`
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Friday, September 23, 2005
Being the lazy me who don't bloghop that often anymore, I didn't notice Yee Wei tagged me.. and I don't normally layan.... but then.... I'm feeling particularly happy :P
So here goes....
Seven things I plan to do before I die:
- Make another trip to Europe, only this time, its with my friends.. and I'm backpacking!
- Get my dream car.. BMW something or other :P
- The usual nitty gritty.. get rich, get a house, tralala..
Seven things I can do:
- cook..
- bake..
- eat..
- taekwando
- play the gu zheng
- everything else you CAN'T do
- everything I WANT to do :)
Seven celebrity crushes:
- none what-so-ever
- though I do think Alex Fong is cute :P *nyahahah sticks tongue out at Ling*
- for a moment I thought Oliver James was nice :P no, not Jamie Oliver
- I think Gallen Lo is da bomb! NOT. But his voice is good
- once upon a time I considered Keanu Reeves to be good looking. Not anymore.
- and have omgnyummilicious voices :P
Seven random facts about me:
- I do crazy things and no, even though you're close to me like Une and Ling, you haven't seen the crazy me..
- I love my sneakers
- I can't bear to walk on heels.. at least for now
- I do not own a skirt.. erm, make that I do own ONE which I don't wear (oh shut up ;P)
- I think my eyes got smaller as I grew older
Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
- a nice smile
- dreamy? intent? I don't know hwo to describe the eyes
- at least 5 ft 7 la..
- medium built? haha..
- are toned abs too much?
- err..
- umm...
Seven current/recent books:
- Her
- Cupid effect
- and a whole lot of other books.. can't remember the names.. chic lits la :P
- tonnes more than I have read in the past year *sigh*
Posted at 05:08 pm by jean`
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Semua pun kena update .. yang ni pun tak dikecualikan ..
oh coz i terlupa.. erm not lupa, but out of sheer laziness, didn't put up a pic after i got a haircut.. so there.. hahaha.. feel so much better after cutting my hair.. its like only the 2nd time this year la omg.. i normally cut every couple of months! As Nic said, and I quote..
" ermm.. if don't cut hair like my hair feels not nice.. unhealthy? no.. unhappy?! maybe.. but cut
already.. WAhhh damn nice! " .. :P
oh oh.. yang best sekali.. aku akan pergi ke royal melb show dan tulip festival!! hurraay!! best kab?? kAN???!! :P
Posted at 10:40 am by jean`
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
What a day!!
Anyways, after a long day of day dreaming and classes, I finally got home. And guess what?
ITS HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!! :P
Found a whole pile of mail, including Aunty Joy's in my mailbox.. and right at the top of the pile.. there it was.. all yellow and red.. EXPRESS POST .. with my name on it!! I knew at once what it was.. all the hopes and pleas and it has arrived !! All secured.. hohoho, no backing out now! *rubs hands together in glee!*
Oh yeah, while I was waiting for my next class at the John Medley Library...
There I was sitting down, reading.. minding my own business.. when suddenly I caught a whiff of a foul smell.. BO! I looked around and didn't see anyone moving in particular.. held my breath for a while.. then breathed again.. and it was gone.. then later, AGAIN! Hui Li came to sit next to me, but after a while, I mumbled a quick "it smells, I'm moving" and left to find another spot. Not long after, Dennis came and sat beside me.. exchanged hellos and continued to read.. then this big guy walked pass us, and bLerrrGHhhhhhhhh..!!!!!! HOW HE STANK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Even AFTER he left, the smell lingered on!! I hurried over to the counter to get those books I want on loan then went back to my seat.. at least the smell was gone.. what a relief!
So yeah... I'm so HAPPY!!!!! ITS HOLIDAYS!!!! hahaha :P I want to go to the Royal Melbourne Show and the Tulip Festival.. anyone up for it? Diana?
Posted at 06:06 pm by jean`
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
could've..would've.. pah!
I just realised that I can't pay some of the bills for my aunt. Tsk.. need to buzz my cousin soon..
Have been pretty absent-minded today in everything I do.. from gym to reading to talking to people to my journey back to the city..
My mind kept wandering to things I know and don't know.. things on my "I wish" and "could've" list.. memories of my late grandma.. and when I read Mel's entry on people leaving the country and her feeling all lost.. I felt a twinge in my heart. Bits and pieces of my life just reeled off the top of my head, and while at the station, I wondered.. what if suddenly the terrorists stuck to their threat and the station was one of the places that got hit..
Staring into a what I hoped to be a blank spot on the window, time flew pass me and before I knew it, I was almost home. I think rcjy and ling have seen me space out many times before, and sometimes I do it in the midst of a conversation it seems.. thats terrible! I miss my moments of being able to laugh non-stop like a mad girl, letting the laughter wash my worries away.. without a second thought of what is to happen next, and fully enjoying the present moment.
digressing away..
My neighbour is so getting on my nerves! Blasting music before its even BRIGHT is just evil! C'mon, the sun rises at around quarter past 6 nowadays.. as it is I wake up once its bright, now she has to add salt to the wound.. what the?!?!. ... !!!! Note shall go on her door as soon as I can do it =\
Posted at 09:45 pm by jean`
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
I mentioned in the previous post that I was supposed to go for the mooncake festival celebration by a few unis at Lt Bourke.. but ended up not going for that too..
I went to the city on Saturday afternoon and went to get some TTs to bring home, then met up with Chyong Ying and followed her up to Amanda's place at Unilodge. Initially I thought we were supposed to go to June's place but they finished their "secret" operation already and were chilling at Amanda's place.. I'm meeting Amanda for the first time..
Turns out they decided they felt like eating sushi, so invited a few friends over later that evening and we were to prepare the stuff for sushi-making.. =) They already bought the ingredients so I merely helped out a little.
Later that evening, Jeffrey, Nicholas, CS, Ronnie, CY, Amanda, June, Mun Ling, and myself were having a feast of yummie sushi and salmon sashimi! We had tonnes of food and all of them were really friendly though I just got to know them ;D
After the dinner, the guys left except for CS. We all decided to go together to check out the event on Lt Bourke but turns out its at the other end of Lt Bourke.. which we've all never been before! So we walked..and walked.. and walked.. and then we looked ahead and saw that it was dark and eerie (or so we felt) and decided against going to the night club it was held at and turned back.. then I realised that the other 3 guys went to book a karaoke session for us.. so all of us except CS went to this Korean Karaoke place on Russel St I think.. had a blast there!! Sang for 2 hours, and by the time we left it was close to 1am already.. had 2 jugs of Coke and it only came up to about $12 per person.. the dinner earlier came up to $5.40 per person only.. fair enough yeah? Oh yeah, fyi Jason, the place we went to cost $40 per hour per room.. not by head count..
After that, I went back to Amanda's place to collect my stuff and we went our separate ways.. CY, Mun Ling, and myself walked all the way back to Carlton.. was drizzling halfway so we had to run part of the way!
Finally slept only around 3.30am and woke up this morning at 8.30am.. ;( supposed to go to this mooncake thingie at Brunswick which I later found out when we were on the tram (Amanda, Mun Ling, Wai Keen *new friend*, CY and me) so CY suggest that both of us go back to her place to collect my things and meet them at Brunswick later since its near my place only. After shopping at Vic Mkt and much complications.. we arrived at my place and then headed on to South Melb Beach (Brunswick thingie was too boring they said!)
CY said to go Sth Melb Beach for good fish and chips.. but Cindy told me it was in Port Melb..so anyways, we met up with the other 3 at SMB and they were having their lunch already.. then turns out CY said its not that place, and is in fact PORT MELB! So okay lor..... after some quick calculations, WK decided its quicker if we walked along the beach to Port M.. so thats what we did, under the blazing hot sun! Grabbed icecream on the way.. and that made our walk much more pleasant! Had the fish and chips there, but nothing to shout about though.. since we made the 3 wait, CY and myself paid for the platter and "cheng" the rest of them.. all pinched a little hehe..
Nice view, and the waterfront restaurant is there as well, looks really classy! Everyone was out with their adorable doggies and some we saw were playing fetch by throwing the ball into the sea water!! What a funny sight that was! Tonnes of starfish on the rocks as well ;D
We sunbathed at the steps of the tiny jetty for a few hours while playing with dogs and laughing ourselves silly, then decided to head home. By the time I arrived home it was close to 6pm.. then cleared the house a little and my cousin came to take me out for dinner .. passed me tonnes of vids too!
Went to that Hawkers Cafe at Russel St.. nothing great, shared a bit of bakuteh .. but the yao char koay (chinese fried donut) was alright tho.. there's this particular waiter's attitude which I found horrible! If he served me and did that to me, I will NOT go back there! Not that I think I'm going back there anytime soon anyway..
Girl : *said something like there's something wrong with her teh tarik.. doesn't taste like it*
Waiter : *gave a bored look* oh because we use a different type of ingredient.. we use tea leaves instead of the *wuteva wuteva*
Girl : *said something like but its still different bla bla*
Waiter : *rolled his eyes and stared into space* Whatever lah!
like hello?????? what kinda shitty service is that?! IF he gave that kinda service to my cousin and I, he'd get a nice sounding alright! .. Long entry? sorry :P 2 days worth ma.. so some eye candy to reward you nice readers :P
These are only SOME of the flavours that were available for the sale.. anyway, Becky, I got a chewy caramel for you .. Ling, I got you chewy caramel and classic dark .. the others I got for my family.. the double coated supposed to be for my cousin, but he opened and ate some only haha.. will get the coffee liquer and tia maria the next time I see it.. =)
Photos from the trip to the beach may only be posted up *if I am rajin* when I receive them from ML and WK.. oh yeah.. didn't manage to do laundry *wails* and I got a sun burn.. on a rare hot day! haha!
Posted at 09:34 pm by jean`
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Friday, September 16, 2005
Fishing. Like Law.. like life.. its the journey that counts, not the destination.
You have eden eyes. Eden is the color of water. Your eyes symbolize your great flexibility. You are a creative person. You can think of many good ways to get your point across to people as you have very good communication abilities. When someone feels down or is hurt, you have the remarkable ability to help them and heal them. If you have too little going on in your life, you may be withdrawn and depressed, timid, manipulative, unreliable, stubborn, or suspicious. Some words to describe you: peaceful, sincere, affectionate, tranquil, intuitive, trustworthy, pure, loyal, healing, and stable.
I cannot help but admit that there's a tad bit of truth in that..
Sorry peeps.. though I said I'd be going for some fun tonight at the festival, cannot bring myself to go there today.
I miss my family an awful lot. I can't help but feel that I am missing out on my brother's growing up. We've never really been separated for longer than a few days since the day he was born. Though a brat he may be, I still miss him badly. The same goes for my two younger cousin sisters who are both nutters. And as much as I feel like wringing their neck for the things they do sometimes, they are both adorable pests. Not to mention they give me more eyebags than my assignments do! Do I have a knack for describing my dear siblings or what?! hoho..and no I am NOT home sick! .. honest!
Living alone gives you too much time to ponder about your life. It makes you think about the idealistic life you wish to lead while comparing it with the actual life you are leading. Everyone has wishes yet do we put in any effort in making them come true? All we do is whine and pray and hope that it rains money one day. Only, it will rain into bags which will be placed right on your doorstep. No, wait.. make that right on your lap. Or it could just whisk itself to the bank and deposit itself to your bank account. Then, ding! DREAM ON!
Tim tams for the fam!
Now.. can someone please whisk me away to a holiday? And on your way here, please bring with you an additional mouse (mine is having PMS moodswings!), some sun TAN lotion (I'm sure that lotion I have is not sun block.. but its in Deutch so feh! and no I am not nuts, I do think I am looking like some bak zham kai okay!? yucks) .. and a superbly nice car else airplane tickets would do just fine! ;D
- aku boLeh! -
Posted at 03:29 pm by jean`
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